As moms with addicted children, we may often feel fragile, but we are strong. And we are many.
To every mother living with the complicated reality of loving a child with an addiction, Sandra Swenson has been where you are today. As a follow-up to her beloved meditation book Tending Dandelions, Sandy has written brand new honest readings for mothers living in the place where love and addiction meet. With the Readings for Moms of Addicts app, you can carry these new meaningful readings with you wherever you go. Sandy honestly addresses codependency, shame, grief, stigma, and how she came to realize that letting go is not the same as giving up. Wherever you and your child are in your unique recovery journeys, these readings will remind you that you are not alone.
This app contains 146 new readings that are different from, yet complementary to, the readings in the book Tending Dandelions published by Hazelden Publishing. This convenient and searchable app format provides the perfect tool for use in support groups–such as Al-Anon, Nar-Anon Family Groups, or Families Anonymous–or at any time you need connection and motivation.
Addiction has changed my understanding of love.
Before my first child was even born, back when he was just a bun in the oven—before I even knew that such a love came baked-in to motherhood—I already knew a love that was pure and beautiful, unconditional and without end. But in time, beaten down by The Addict’s cruel lashes, I’ve come to know a love that is painfully less than that.
And more than that.
Never could I have imagined that my child would use and manipulate me and my love, even while starting out on the road to recovery. Never could I have imagined that I would need to protect my heart and soul from the child I love, or that the field in which my love was meant to grow would be so harsh.
My love now has boundaries. It has to. But still, it is a love unconditional and without end.
Maybe it’s even stronger than it would have been, because it’s been growing, and adapting, in a storm.
A tattered, yet enduring, dandelion.
“If you let us, I promise you, with every fiber in my being, that we will rip your heart out and suck you dry until you are bleeding out—a ravaged, withering carcass left out in the cold. I’m not saying that we want to do that to you, but I’m saying that we will because we are insane addicts whose addiction comes first before anything and anyone.” —Charles A. Peabody